It all started when I got sick a week and a half ago. I was bedridden (thanks to the fact that it was Saturday and my husband was home, so I had the option. Midweek, Mommy doesn't get to be sick) with a bad cold. I decided to pull out "Twilight" for a little light reading. Unsurprisingly, I got sucked into the story once again. It had the added bonus of being a nice distraction from the flurry of Christmas preparations.
A week and a half later I've re-read 2 1/2 books from the series and am feeling pretty calm about Christmas. "There's not that much left to do," I tell myself. "There's plenty of time," I agree.
Cut to early this morning, 2:30 to be exact. I get woken up by one of my kids and, after getting them back to bed, I stay awake and my mind starts to wander. I start thinking about Christmas and the various tasks I need to accomplish over the next week.
I need to finish baking treats for the neighbors and take them around, practice for a musical number, clean my house to be ready for out-of-town guests and oh yeah, I need to feed them too. I also need to get ready for a cabin trip which means preparing food for a large group and making sure we all have weather-appropriate attire (which we don't). Oh yeah, and I'm subbing on the organ so I need to practice for that, I haven't even thought about a Christmas card yet, and do I even have any gifts for my husband???
At this point I start to panic. My neck tenses up and my heart starts to pound. I stay awake worrying about it all for the next 3 hours. Will I get it all done? Is there even enough time? Is it humanly possible to be ready for Christmas in just one week when I am so far behind???
I have no answers, just the resolve that I will TRY to pull myself away from Bella, Edward, and Jacob so I can make some headway on my long to-do list. And appease myself with the fact that I am likely not alone in my panic and long to-do list. This time of year, it's inevitable.
I think I liked avoidance better. I'll have to remember that in the future.